frog in a bog
February 18, 2020
Yesterday I went to the aquarium with Boo and Jarrith. I love it, being surrounded by marine- and wild-life, standing beneath a massive tank of water and sea beasts while in the company of people I love. That said, I still feel an uncomfortable and unwanted level of separation from others, even when I’m around people who love me.
I’m not sure what it is, but I’m trying hard to be patient with it.
I enjoyed being inside my own mind at the aquarium though. I especially loved sitting next to the octopus tank and feeling its energy and power. I felt like it felt me there. I was sending it love.
I was also big time vibing with the frog exhibit, imagining myself living out my existence in a bog with endless moss and moisture and heat. UGH. Esme told me a couple of days ago that she believes I was a frog in a past life. She said, “I had a vision you were a frog, and that’s why you like bogs so much … you were floating on the current on a lily pad, and you were hungry.”
Such a cute image. I would LOVE to be a frog on a lily pad. That sounds like a perfect life! I love the inclusion of the hunger.
Esme also pulled this oracle card for me:
Surrender to sweetness—
Venus energy. Pleasure. Joy. Make love to life.
This is a sensual, highly feminine card. It’s a call to surrender to the sweetness of life, to let the ever-abundant feminine take over. To taste the fruits you’ve been working so hard to grow. To let your senses take over and really drink in your life with wonder. To get intoxicated on the simple bounty that this planet has to offer and which you have within you when your well is full … This card is wooing you back to the pleasures of being human.
Words for a poem: wild, wild nights; frog; green; leopard …
“Wild nights, wild nights!
Were I with thee
Wild nights would be our luxury!
Futile the winds -
To a heart in port -
Done with the Compass -
Done with the chart!
Rowing in Eden -
Ah - the sea!
Might I but moor - tonight-
In thee!”
Despite being somewhat of a stoner lately, I’ve been having unusually vivid dreams, more sensually engaging than real life, and more clear-headed. In some ways they feel more “real” than my day-to-day. They’re more engaged, or rather they inspire me to be more of a creative participant than reality does.
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