migraines and mind games

May 15, 2020, 5AM

I’m losing track of time.

My mind is playing cruel games with me tonight. Around 2AM I got a horrible migraine, which has only happened to me once, 6 years ago when I was riding to Oregon through Napa Valley with my first husband. I keep having the thought that something out of the ordinary and sinister is the cause. I’m fighting the urge to check the stove again to make sure there isn’t a leaky gas valve or something.

I also watched Pan’s Labyrinth, which was beautiful but definitely cast a dark mood.

I’m also stressed that I’m going insane, because I’ve felt extremely unstable and isolated lately. I need acupuncture and to talk to Carole and Papa. They always know what to say.

Why does my soul get so dark?

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