ocean blue fairy lights

June 28, 2020

I’m at the edge of my bed, very stoned, feeling the breeze outside the window and listening to “Love Is Like A Butterfly” by Dolly Parton.

I’m contemplating my date with Zeke and trying to understand my anxiety. How to not have too many expectations and let things happen naturally. But yikes. He makes me feel intense pleasure when I observe him and when he engages with me.

And when I slept at his studio last night with his head on my chest beneath the ocean blue fairy lights and dreamy music—like seriously the dreamiest music ever: obsessed with the album Air Con Eden now—surrounded by beautiful art and art supplies, I was overwhelmingly in the present.

More later. I’m going to take a shower.

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