multi-love housewarming

September 30, 2021

Since the sun moved into Libra on the Fall equinox, I have felt an emotionally palpable shift in my energy and a greater strength of mind.

Constable and I had a pretty big “fight” on the 22nd, after which I realized that much of my suffering comes from the deep and ever-present fear that I am going to lose both him and Femme. I withhold a lot of myself as an act of self-preservation.

I’m not sure what shifted within me, but I’m feeling much less of that fear and a lot more confidence in their love for me and my safety to express my love for them.

We had a housewarming party on Saturday, and it turned out perfect. We made hors d’oeuvre: caprese on toothpicks, bruschetta with goat cheese, potstickers, and a 4-layer strawberry cake I made with pastel orange icing, blue decorations, sprinkles, and green lettering that said, “MULTI-LOVE” in cursive.

We used all of our plates, utensils, and goblets. I also made a Fall sangria. People smoked a few joints under the tree in the backyard, and it was tender and exciting to see everyone enjoying and interacting with our space. The house looked incredible and still does. Everyone was titillated by the small details we put into the place.

Even the Magician came and stayed for four hours. All of my closest friends (other than Dragon) came.

I’m writing this next to the Constable right now while he makes art. I’m going to have a slice of toast and a cup of tea and maybe do some stretching.

Today was gentle.

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