the rat and the jade

March 10, 2020

Albums to listen to:

Gentle Leader by Peach Kelli Pop
Darling by The She-Devils
Seasons of Your Day by Mazzy Star

Tonight someone told me I look French, which is cool.

On another note, the Rat is “going through some stuff” and has withdrawn from me. I understand where he is coming from, but it hurts me because we’ve been so intimate in other ways, and the lack of communication makes me feel really uncertain. And really lonely. My instinct is telling me to take space. It’s hard because he is lovely. His girlfriend is too, despite her interference in my relationship with the Rat.

And all the people I’ve met through them have been lovely people.

But I can’t force a situation to be ideal, and a situation can never be ideal without a LOT of communication from all parties.

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